Greetings All,
I am Anna. This is my first extension into the blogosphere. I write tonight for the same reason I always write; I write to hear what I am thinking. Sounds narcissistic, I realize, but only as I listen to my own thoughts can I also hear a quieter voice beneath them. And only as I listen to the things I am telling myself, am I able to call upon a Voice with a greater love and a higher perspective on me. I listen for that Voice that is telling me a profoundly different story than I am telling myself. I am always shocked by the comparison of the two stories. But I only hear the second one after I have uncovered the first. “The ego always speaks first”, the Course reminds us.
There is some part of me that resists, so persistently, hearing my thoughts, that on some days, there is no activity less acceptable than listening to my own thoughts. On those days listening to anything else is better; the awful news, other people’s excuses for not living their own lives, and things that have no real use to me at all. I desperately need to write so that my Self does not languish in avoidance. I need to write so that my Self can teach me about myself. This is the thing that I need more than anything in the world. My only need is to know myself and the beauty and power it possesses. Only then the uncertainty of self that haunts me will be replaced forever by certainty in myself. A Course In Miracles teaches us that to know yourself is to know all of creation, and even God.
If in my writing to know myself and hence God, I inspire you to take that risk and to reap those rewards, then I am deeply humbled in gratitude.
Miracles Are Natural,
Anna
